Nevitz

:( I am such a loser !!! I’ve seen a really nice girl, but i just can’t go and talk to her I think i just think too much….n also i think i just wouldn’t like to be rejected lol. But like my friend told me “if u r not ready to lose, u can’t win” And this is fuckin’ true !!! I know i will regret it. Just like with the girl i wanted to go out with when i was in high school…guess things will never change!

Oh and today my friend made me realise that i have another problem ! LOL I am an Hypocondriac...this week i was sure that i had contracted a disease “meningitis” LOL its because, when i was in the club last week, i drank a glass a coke without a straw. And its because just a few minutes before that my friend’s gf drank in my glass and she told me “u dont have meningitis, do u ?” And from that moment i just kept on thinking about that. I was very stressed i looked on the net to check the symptoms.
I each day, i was certain to see the symptoms appear, like rashes, itchy skin, headaches and feeling sleepy. I was telling me “shit, how should i do? should i go to the doctor?” I was really getting anxious, and today i decided to do a few minutes of yi quan to relax and to clean my mind of those silly stuffs.
After that i realise that, the what i though were rashes…were just red pimples, the irritation was i thing from the changing weather who coz some electrostatic in my cloth and the headaches was due to the lack of sleep, coz this week i was sleeping maybe 4h per day.

Tonite my friend peter asked me if u knew what an hypocondriac was. I immediatly look for the definition…and fuck that was exactly me. I read a few post on some forums, and they are heaps of people in the same case. Knowing that was kinda a relief…but i still have those fear…but i know that i am not alone and there is a way to surpass those fears.